''I Can't Fight Her''
06:00AM ET July 14, 2010
Contributor : Hip Hop Blog Staff
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Mashonda recently opened up to VIBE about her messy breakup with producer Swizz Beatz and his affair and child with superstar Alicia Keys. When asked if she would attend their wedding if invited, her answer was direct:

"No. Not out of malice, but because weddings are sacred. It's just not my place. The only reason I went to his birthday party was because he invited me and I did that for myself. I needed to see them together for it to transfer. And I was like ‘Wow, this is real.' We were still totally married…We had a divorce that was nowhere near final, but I just needed to see them in action for it to be real to me, and it was definitely real. You have all these different types of steps that you have to set up for yourself until you get to that place where you are free. And I will tell you, after I got divorced maybe three weeks later I woke up and felt a weight removed. It was the first time I'd ever felt mentally free. And I sent him an email wishing him all the best in the world.”

She also revealed that she has understands whats going with Keys and still enjoys her music.

“I don't make it an effort to listen. I don't make it an effort not to listen. I still like her songs. She's head over heels in love and I get it. Every woman deserves to feel that, not at the expense of another woman though. But I understand why some of the decisions were made on her part, because her heart was so in it. I can't fight that [and] I can't fight her because she's a household name. People are always going to love her for her music, as they should. She makes great music, but no one is really ever going to understand what happened in this house.”